my dirty secrets

2008-03-21T14:25:00.001+08:00

mychildhoodmates
mydearies(:
ilovethemtruckloads(:
weeeeee

2007-09-27T23:30:00.000+08:00

memories are kept close to my heart
reminisce the past and feel the love.

2007-09-14T00:23:00.000+08:00

had maths paper2 and accts paper1 and i think its crap hah!
phew luckily no paper tml i can relax myself alil...woohoo...
i hate ppl trying to be someone...
be yrself(:

baby is studying hard now!
my phone was so quiet without yr msges...
love u sweets

2007-09-09T10:18:00.000+08:00

how silly can he be to realise that prelims are just next wk!!!
oh man i save sweets life! haha...this sotong tsktsk...

its been a month, and the journey is full of laughter and joy(:
you make me realised that nth is impossible...
you make me 'tripped' for you and i know u've caught me!
thanks for tolerating my nonsense...u're great(:

all the best for prelims everyone...

they are the sweetiest drug i can ever ask for<3

2007-09-07T12:51:00.000+08:00

after so long i teared becos of some small matters...
hw silly can i be.
i hate myself for being so silly...really...

baby says he hope to erase fri so we can meet sooner(:
i miss him, i really do

2007-09-06T23:16:00.000+08:00

restless!

today student gave ms teo a hard time man.

hmm hais...ms teo heartbroken alr cos student nv listen to what she say!!!ahhh

luckily baby sms me...and soothe my anger...

thanks(:

nth special happened today...

i think i have wasted another day...man...

he nv fail to make my dear...my dear loklok ,muacks.

i miss u badly sweets(:

2007-09-05T09:51:00.000+08:00

had a bad headache ytd.
its like someone crushing my brain.
its a sharp pain and i felt nausea.tsk the feeling sucks!
i din do any revision so far...
think i shld go and bang wall alr...)):
so what if i've got pass and everything...
to maintain it, its twice as difficult):
its nt humble, i really feel the stressfulness.
think only 1 or 2 ppl know how i feel.

had a long chat with him.
found out that he is moving on real well, but maybe there are some prob?
hmm anw im happy that u are happy with what u have know.
you shld know thats what i wan for u always.
no one know what will happen in the future like u say(:
tc idiot!

you bring life to everything i do baby<3

2007-09-03T22:55:00.000+08:00

As each day goes by, my feelings for you grows stronger.

2007-09-01T10:40:00.000+08:00

thanks for telling me everything will be fine.
thanks for telling me that my dad said that out of the spur of the moment.
thanks for trying to do things to make me feel better.
ur words sooth my anger and assured me that with u im safe(:
i love u baby

celebrated tcher's day ytd (:
the concert whereby the tchers act was absolutely hilarious!
haha i cant help but luff like a mad woman.
my gers as well....
i dunno why but it was really funny.
those singers were alright.
initially thought they will screw it up but end up it was quite gd(: well done ppl.
aft that went to mdm chow's hse
along came sweets. Asked him to go hm and get change....but he said he bought everything thing to change haha~
den headed to lover's hse
her mother welcomed us in and had prepared food for us..
awww how sweet can she be(:
ate and slack ard her hse.
mdm chow and sweets had some interaction haha...
and in btw dere were some amusing things happen lah...
all in all mdm chow is a cute lady..and she rawks.

met baobei at bugis...and we began to shop...weehee...thats what we like to do yeah(;
den aft that nth much in bugis we left for town to meet sally and sexyback. bumo into our classmates they had a chat and sally came. she wan to go find her lego keychain haa so headed to taka and den wisma and guess what sweets pinch me so hard when he saw a singh
but nvm he gt his punishment(:
sally say she wan to eat steamboat hah! went back to bugis agn tsktsk...
had steamboat and everyone is like fucking full except for sexybk
he is crazy he can eat like he nv eat b4!oh my my...

journey home with baobei and sweets(:
we crap alot...i swear.
esp abt other ppl.... hehe...
thats bad.

so damn dread and tired but i enjoy every mins and secs spent with my beloved(s)
i love them all...

I will not disappoint you,I will be right there for you till the end

2007-08-28T23:42:00.000+08:00

SIN SIN SIN!
i skipped agn oh my my...40$ gone-
hmm but i've got my private gp tutor to teach me hah!foc eh.
((:
taught me some skills and i think its alil helpful thou((:
thanks sweetie

i'll whisper i love u into yr ears

2007-08-24T21:13:00.000+08:00

oh yes. finally got to watch rush hr 3 its fantastic...
haha its damn hilarious can!
i was luffing lyk nobody's biz man!
rocking back and fro.same goes to my partner(:
everyth was great went to marche and had my dinner(:
yummilcious, but was damn full ar.
had ICE CREAM!
oh man its unavoidable.
im in love with ice cream...a sinful indulgence huh...
aft that walk ard and met up with sanjay.
they wanted to get justin's birthday present so walk ard to look for it
den i went off
leaving the gay partners behind to cont their own act.
bought papa a cake!
and i know his happy((:
im happy to see him happy woohooo
WIshing daddy a happy birthday(: gd health and lots more...
i love him
i love my family and i love u as well....
nv being left behind...
oh of cos i love my gers.((:

2007-08-22T19:52:00.000+08:00

i dn wan to think abt it...
i treat it as it nv happened b4
i treat it as i din see i din hear and i dn know anyth.
i wan to cont.acting blur....
cos knowing the truth hurts a trillion.

im looking forward to FRIDAY!
cos he promised me to watch rush hr 3!
i missed disturbia ar...cant miss anymore if not i will go crazy... =S
these days im damn lethargic...and i have no reason why...
mayb its lack of slp?
or maybe im stressed up...
i dunnoe... ):

2007-08-20T22:03:00.000+08:00

When our time is up,
When our lives are done,
Will we say we've had our fun?
Will we make a mark,
This time.
Will we always say we tried.
Standing on the rooftops,
Everybody scream your heart out

2007-08-20T21:28:00.000+08:00

had principal talk this morning...was alil slpy but i did pay attention to some of the things he said alright((:

had GP! to start of my day and is dreadful...eeks
i dn lyk the tcher...which makes me dislike the subj xP
aft that was accts.
was alright thou...
den end of my day!
haha as usual skipped gp...
went over to study with mini and sexybk...
we did our revision ok!!!!dn play play...((:
i managed to solved the chemistry qns haha
u really need to focus to do it tsk..mayb i was thinking of other things thats why got distracted...
sexybk fall aslp...
mat studied... lying down on the couch-.-
dunno how he study sia...
nonetheless everyone did well yeah..mium!

i thought i ha alr put u at the back of my mind...
but the sudden msg just shocked me...
thought u nt gonna msg me anymore
or even rmb me?
i know u bth make promises...
keep yr promise and dn break it.

I always needed time on my own
I never thought I'd need you there when I cry
And the days feel like years when I'm alone
And the bed where you lie
is made up on your side
When you walk away
I count the steps that you take
Do you see how much I need you right now?
When you're gone
The pieces of my heart are missing you
When you're gone
The face I came to know is missing too
When you're gone
The words I need to hear to always get
me through the day
And make it OK
I miss you
I haven't felt this way before
Everything that I do
reminds me of you
And the clothes you left
are lyin' on the floor
And they smell just like you
I love the things that you do
When you walk away
I count the steps that you take
Do you see how much I need you right now?
When you're gone
The pieces of my heart are missing you
When you're gone
The face I came to know is missing too
When you're gone
The words I need to hear to always get
me through the day
And make it OK
I miss you
We were meant for each other
I keep forever
Oh oh oh oh oh
All I ever wanted was for you to know
Everything I do I give my heart and soul
I can hardly breathe I need to feel youhere with me
YeahWhen you're gone
The pieces of my heart are missing you
When you're gone
The face I came to know is missing too
When you're gone
The words I need to hear to always get
me through the day
And make it OK
I miss you

as days goes by, i know im leading a new life(:
and its all because of u

2007-08-19T21:26:00.001+08:00

was fuming cos someone is late and din inform me why he is so latttteeee...
hav to make both of them wait with me and i feel really bad...
din manage to catch disturbia...)):
im really dying to watch that...
thought could catch rush hr 3...in th end... )):
mayb the disappointment add on to my fire! haha
being damn mean along the way to esplanade...
explanation rejected...
i remain silent all the way...until i burst out everything!
but in the end its still a happy ending((:
baobei say she wanna join us in th end didnt make it...alamak...silly ger

fireworks last night was fabulous((:
i can still imagine how close it is.

i love the ice cream.
it can really lighten up my mood hah...
u owe me 10 movie treats!

today is the day of conferencing...
i wan to know whats the outcome...
i din expect u to do so much...even smuggle someone in...
it hurts alil knowing the truth...
i cant hold my tears back,but to let it run down my face agn...
but the feeling is different this time...
cos i know im letting u go bit by bit...
and slowly it became a habit
they are right...i dn need u to survive...
without u life my will still b colourful cos i've got wonderful ppl in my life...
u are the past...
the past that i will cherish and mesmerise(:
all the best to u and her...

cant b couples we can always b friends...
tc

2007-08-17T22:36:00.000+08:00

oh man i think my temp is rising...
hmm whole body feel warmmmm!!! gosh...
my gers today are gg crazy(:
they talk abt piercing and tattoos...lol...and mingyi join in the madness as well
but nevertheless they are as cute as usual...
had photo taking today...
but was kinda disappointed, cos aft photo taking everyone went off...
if it was last time, we will stay back and have trng...)):
i m really missing the time... hais...
sch is gettin more and more stressful)):
and i think im slacking! ahhhh

iloveminimin,ilovebaobei,ilovelppp,iloveprecious,ilovehim(:

you are gone with her...
all the best(:

2007-08-15T20:28:00.000+08:00

firstly, got to wish lek ling a HAPPY 19th BIRTHDAY!!!!
may all ur wishes come true and all e best for yr exams girl(:
had lunch with her and the rest of my beloved.
went ikea and had meatballs and it just taste fab(:

do u know that pieces of my heart is missing you?
why didnt u picked up the phone ytd?
why didnt u reply my msg?
m i really a total stranger to you?
m i only someone u turn to when u hav no one else to...
m i no one to you...
hu m i to you?

2007-08-13T21:31:00.000+08:00

dont do silly things to urself cos its not worth it at all for a girl like this...
all the pain u gg thru she wont feel a pinch....
dont hurt yrself alright...
dont make ppl ard worried for u...

sotong is being understanding thou i thought he wld b angry...
we talked things out and yup indeed sotong is very understanding...
but dunno real anot hah!
((:

exams ard the corner dunno what m i doin man
i dn wan to slack but i dn have motivation to pick up my bks...
whenever i wan to do that, i gave alot of excuses... hmm kinda worried...
everyone pls buck up alright((:
and study hard
love<3

i think im missing you...
lost contact totally agn...brg me up and drop me down agn...u are pro at it...
hope things are better for u...which i think it does...
mayb im just a passer by to you...
tell me how you feel...
tell me how u wan it to be...

2007-08-10T21:10:00.000+08:00

street netball was super duber fun!
thou all of us were lyk half dead...and can doze off anytime....tsk
the gers were adorable...
abby ray and i went into toy's'rus and its lyk gonna 12 midnight... no one in there and everyone were packing up and ready to close...and the two active gers took the sword and play with it haha...how cute can they be...(:
won 3 games and lost 2, got 3rd in our grouping but only top 2 can proceed to the 2nd round... nvtheless the gers had did a great job...
u gers rawks...
oh and shannaz fell... and its damn hilarious hah!
poor girl(:
love u gers truck loads

one roasted chicken that taste weird....
student meal...
slping on the chair...
and lots more...
im missing it...
shld it b the way?
slept the whole journey back and i hhope the station nv reach...

2007-08-03T22:16:00.000+08:00

had swensens today with mdm sin and the other gers who went down for umpiring for that interhse thingy((:
thanks cher for giving us a treat((: it was yummilicious and its fun to have th gers ard((:
shared burgers with abby((: and we had earthquake and i think its nice hah! dunno why((: im in love with it...like sotong says 'sinful indulgence'

we crack jokes and everyth and trust me its super funny!!!!gossips gossips and more gossips

i miss trngs with the gers terribly)):

the bond we have is strong and everyone has the same goal, the same passion for netball

i love the team and every single one of them...

its always easy to say...

2007-08-02T21:44:00.001+08:00

woohoo... today had accts 6 periods!!! tsk... but den time flies and lessons ended pretty fast((: esp with my love ones((:
today baobei describe her cousin to me...and it sounded very long!
aft that i had the phobia teaching her cousin...
we luff like mad in the canteen and there goes one of our break hah
accts consultation we had mock...and we released 25 mins early!
baobei says its a miracle and i agreed

went to had bubble tea and mini and 1 were shooting pearls all ard...=X
it was fun can((:
got lost in the carpark and one car got so close to mini ahhhhh
stupid car...
den went to look for our siew mai...waited for the damn thing and in the end its cold -.-
reheat it agn and waited agn!!! ahhh
but it was yummy baby((:

home-ed and i doze off...
get ready everyth abd went for tuition...
afterall it aint that bad... maybe its just the start lol

thnx baby...it really aint tt bad((:

COLD-ong CUT-ng TRIO-teo
ilovethesebabes

2007-08-01T19:45:00.000+08:00

it's been a few days and i totally lost contact with you...
wandering hows things for u and how u coping with yr stress...cos u are an idiot...dunno how to handle stress! >.<

i know it had been happening in this r.s for umpteen times till i lost count... its always bcos of other her...

this tym i knew the true reason behind it...

thou it breaks my heart but i will move on... mayb its not a bad decision...cos i wont b hurt agn in the future and u can gain ur freedom...

all th best in whatever u do and all the best for yr competition(:

thank u baobei for being there for me when i cried like nobody's biz... i scare my baobei...sorry i know how much u and mini worried abt me cos i din reply u gers! i wanted to b alone for a moment and i went to look for precious i m fortunate to have ppl like u gers ard me cos when i fall u guys are the one who pick me up...

mini too!!!!((: MUACKS!!!

ohhh and precious!! i love her lotsy((:

thanks for the hug and everything...

we can just speak our mind out and talk abt anyth under the roof... the feeling was great and i feel much much more better... STRONG WILL!!!

my precious told me this!! and i will constantly remind myself whenever i think of it...strong will strong will woohooo and

& u((: u nv leave me behind aft sooo sooo much things had happen and i really appreciate it truck loads...

oh tml i m gg to give tuition! er i dunno what shld i do haha... hopefully i wont make the student do badly(: sch life is hectic...tsk...and lots of work yet to b done...some papers are demoralising lah... i start to feel the stress and sometimes i just dont feel like doin anyth die die~

give me the energy to carry on pls

2007-07-28T12:00:00.000+08:00

why things got to become so worst
i feel nth at the moment...
cos im numb...
brg me out of this agony i dn wan to feel this way anymore
cos it hurt like hell...or even worst den that.

behind a fake smile there lies an empty side of me.

2007-07-19T21:01:00.000+08:00

biscuits fanatic! haha
bougth lots of biscuit and it feels so great((:
haha...

u know that i hate u

2007-07-15T19:32:00.000+08:00

goodbye thks for the mnrs
love u and tc

2007-07-14T11:27:00.000+08:00

((:
its gd to know that ppl ard u are concern abt u((:
thnks ppl i appreciate it
its been tough and mental taxing )):
and at some pt of time i really just feel like putting everything down and walk alone...
the heartaches are inevitable...
no matter how hard i try to close one eye, it doesnt help at all
its running in my mind all times))':
every since that day, things started to change tremendously...till i find u so unfamiliar...
why did it happen? im puzzled...
u nv fail to put a smile on my face,
but all these are just temporarily)):
dont do this to me baby...

chatted with pri sch friend leong ytd and i desperately wan to look for my pri sch friends)):
i heard some of them graduated from jcs and stuff. Im pleasant to hear that((:
hopefully i can bump into them one day((:

i've a ~~heavy~~ guardian angel woohoo...

2007-07-12T20:59:00.001+08:00

rachel((:

u are too sweet for me...muacks

i love the SUNFLOWER..wohooo

met up with ling, thanks babe for coming down...love((:

we had a feast on my bday...woo hoo had dynamic pizza... and i swear its damn hot and spicy can! its damn shiok baby((:

my precious PRECIOUS((:

2007-07-11T20:52:00.000+08:00

no matter how tired m i i will still update for the sake of my precious((: wee hee...
thanks ger its been a pleasure spending time with ya((:
i love the food, i love the company, i love the random-ness, i love the convo, i love the cam whoring, i simple love everything... and i love my precious truck loads...weehee...
thanks babe for the day...
love ya lots.. and i wan to meet u more more more kkkk?!

i'll upload photos nxt tym....

2007-07-08T22:18:00.000+08:00

went sentosa ytd!!!((: early in the morning when i open my eyes smth is wrong... cos the sky is dull and its like gg to rain)): oh man... in the end it did rain...so we hang ard in vivo till like noon den headed to sentossa...

sweets gave me a surprise and thanks i love the bikini!!!

played Vb with this grp of ppl... they are funny and entertaining thou ahha...

esp the short boy!!his damn funny can...and his expression tsktsk...

slack down dere and finally the sunn is up! lol...

sweets keep saying 5 mins 5 mins lah... luckily he nv say another 5 mins cos the toilet is filled with women!and we saw this ger tsk... she look eeks!~somebody pls tell her...gdness...

washed up and we were like half dead...3 of us were damn hungry so we went to have our early DINNER((:

we had swensens...cos we dunnoe whr to go makan... headache...

took pics... and yeah neoprint as well.. mm its been ages since i touch the machine and i feel like a retard cos i dunno how to do the decor. tsk

GREEN DAY GREEN DAY~~

it was madness we 3 wore green yippie... cos is green day((: haha

i was like mad cos anyone walk pass me wearing green i will announce it...
sry lover im crazy hah!but she joined in the fun((:

so aft our dinner we had supper hah! went coffee bean and we took lots of crazy pics... and sweets were luffing at it... idiot...but a gd photographer instead((:

had drinks; salads..woo yumm yumm and my small slice of cake...

head-ed home aft that... all were damn exhausted...

i had my confession...

hopefully it works...and hopefully it got into yr mind

we were damn random... and im lovin' it hooo

it was just a warm up :DD

boxer MHD ~~ALI~~ NASZreen

ohhh you had me to lean on babe((:

oh man cmon~love<3

my cake

shall update nxt time cos im tired((: thks ppl i love u all

2007-07-06T22:12:00.000+08:00

dread...
went sch today listen to a few words den end of meeting hah!
hmm but m late for it xP
hmm for the sake of my tcher i shall nt complain((:

hmm things are getting out of hand,
i no longer have that extra energy to care so much
its yrs, it'll b yrs...
if its nt yrs... i think theres no pt...

hmm yeah im gg to party with my beloved gers((:
woohoo sat my day is devoted to 2 of the most impt person in my life((:
mylover and my lover hah!
looking forward to it man! and we will wear green tml kkkk((:

hmm sunday will b for my netball gers((:
we are gg to party in sentosa hahaha...hooyaa...
pls no sri langka sailors anymore they are eeksss...

mon mon!!! is the day for my precious((: woohoo and the rest of the gerssss hopefull they can make it...((:
but things are yet to b confirm better not b too happy first xs

had a nice long chat with my precious online...
and i swear i love her like trillions? hee

and and and i love lover lots too...
no worries we will b there for one another... no matter rain or shine mium!!

and lastly i love u...

2007-07-02T10:38:00.000+08:00

its another gdbye my dear...
hmm this is the 3rd time i think? or the 2nd?
hmm thks for everything, u're being damn great(:
maybe this is the best solution for me and u...
mayb this is the best soln to lessen ur heartaches
im sry...

let my feelings out and let it grow

2007-07-01T12:14:00.000+08:00

oh oh... nxt wk gonna b my last two papers!!
chemistry p3 and accts p2
tsktsk.. i think im gonna screw it up hah!
hmmm been slacking thou...
did study abit but the pace im moving...hah! like snail can
hmm ytd went to macs at 11 pm! tsk... to celebrate my aunt's bday(:
i just keep drinking ice tea and mayb thats the reason why i cant slp till late ytd... xP

all the best to the rest for upcoming papers...woohooo
oh ya im so gonna meet up with my dearies aft my exams! yippie
huiling say so, so im damn looking forward to it... i misses them like... SHIT! lol
i love them lotsa lotsa...((: hopefully we really get to meet up...

i dn wan any auspicious date...
pls dn ever ask me the qns=(

2007-06-23T21:23:00.000+08:00

i behave like a bloody 12 yr old kid...
its piercing thru my heart once more...
im childish to u...
and mayb thats the reason why )':

my cheerfulness will only substain for awhile...
its just temporarily...):
why do i have to care so much to make myself like an idiot...
why do i have to do so much, and ppl dn even care or appreciate what i do...
im a fool...
really have to wake up the idea that theres no use putting extra percent into it cos i got no return...
im exhausted... exhausted of every single thing that is happening...
my mind is flooded with lots of why...
why do u treat me like this boy.
:'(

2007-06-22T11:11:00.000+08:00

im back!!
oh man nxt wk sch starts and its damn dread cos the first day sch reopens we are having mid yrs... how worst can it b! tsk...
and my revision is like crap!!!!
i cant focus... too many things happen.... and i have no idea how to deal with it... ):

that day, when i was damn down... i thought i have no one to turn to... suddenly this person came into my mind...
and its precious((:
thanks precious that night u really lighten my mood...
we chat whateva comes to our mind...
i love the heart to heart chat...
i love the jokes we crack
i love the experience we share.. and most imptly
i love uuu!!! muacks!

lets have more of this... i cant get enuff of u....
love

2007-06-16T10:44:00.000+08:00

why do u always have to tell lies)':
what have i done to make u do this to me agn and agn):
tell me what have i done wrong?

2007-06-13T20:50:00.000+08:00

stressed stressed and STRESSED!!!
oh my my everyone telling me they are stressful but actually they have done a lot for revision...tsktsk why still stressful man i dn understand?
hais...i just cant concentrate and focus... i dn know whats wrong with me =(
went down for a few trngs with the juniors.. help mdm sin to look aft them...
some have potential thou but some of them dont have the right attitude...tsktsk headache x(

yeah we gonna participate in street netball..((:
cool.. im looking forward to it thou...
oh no mxt mon having maths mock hais... gotta buck up and study grace!!

alright lastly hope everyone are doin well with ur mmuggin((:
and those having holis... enjoy it ya~

how issit gonna b like if one day we walk seperate ways and nv turn back

2007-06-06T21:06:00.000+08:00

i dn know what m i thinking tsk

2007-06-03T16:05:00.000+08:00

went genting for holis with my family and relatives
there were so many of us lah 27!!! hah! its quite troublesome thou cos we have to wait for each other and make sure everyone is present b4 we can move on...tsktsk

went to the theme park and its damn shiok can!
i cant wait to play agn~
its thrilling and exciting the space shot! the flying coaster and the cockscrew((:
mama and papa also join in the fun.. but they played those less exciting one hah!
i had fun...((:

and i swear i hate coffee bean now! i dn like coffee!!! nt a single bit for now...
cos it make my journey home nausea~the whole journey im feeling so sick! at any moment i can just puke lol

the weather there is cold...esp at night...luckily i have smth special to keep me warm...thanks((:

when im in genting u are doing smth else,
u nv change a single bit huh...
im utterly disappointed...
this min ur words seem so true
nxt min i realised that everything was fake...
when will it b true...
do you care how i feel?
or m i impt only when there is no one for you
who m i to you?
a toy?or rubbish.
:'(

2007-05-27T20:35:00.000+08:00

whats on ur mind... sometimes i hope i know u well...
its always an on off thingy and do u know how much it hurts?
u prob. dn know cos u nv know how i feel...
all u know is how others feel and how u feel...
im nv on the list.

im stupid!

2007-05-23T22:20:00.000+08:00

a heart shared by 2!
and i hate it...
hmm i cant accept its not i dn wan to...
i have to find excuses...
but i know i cant hide for long
and i know the day of nightmare will soon to come...
why do u have to treat me this way):

2007-05-06T23:18:00.000+08:00

ytd was a great day!

had lots of fun and everything((:

met mints and with pineapple we set off to our first makan destination! and that is swensens earle at vivo.

we ordered seafood pasta shared by 3 of us den CHOCOLATE FONDUE!omg its lovely((:

we ate with joy haha...

we were damn full...aft the meal we went jalan jalan~ pineapple keep gg to handphone shops tsk but we were fine with it ya((: haha... went to look for my adidas shorts and the shorts sold out! ): oh man! shld have bought it last wk when i spotted it... regret aha but in the end i bought smth!
nxt we went to town and jalan jalan agn we planned to go to eat our dinner at newton but we aint hungry at that pt of time so went to town first(: mint shopped for her shorts...and all took lots of silly pics as well tsk!

blame the cameraman for his lousy camera skills

ohh went to newton and hadd our dinnER!we really know how to enjoy life man...its sumptous and yummilicious...and now IM FAT! tsktsk but i nv regret the meals i had! esp the meal at newton! xP

2007-05-06T20:17:00.000+08:00

I WILL UPDATE REAL SOON!

2007-04-20T21:32:00.000+08:00

finally i got the heart to come to my acc and blog...tsk

this wk is totally hectic!
im like lack of slp):
i feel so tired everyday in class, cant get to focus and all...and i kept dozing off!!!!omg who can help me? to stay focus~ i haven been really revising my work and my stress lvl is piling up!
i get so stressed up till i feel lyk crying when im doin accs during lesson... )':
everything is like out of place....arrr

u seems so unfamiliar to me at times...its hard to figure u out

i love my netball gers(:
didnt have trng today, instead we did sharing(:
share whats our view and everything...
coach and mdm sin is with us
and its so sweet of mdm sin for providing us with all the fruits!
and i simply enjoy it! haha
everyone eating happily(: as a team! and i agree with syahidah ... i like the team bonding<3
every session is full of laughter and joy...
sometimes we might get really frustrated and each other but deep down i know th gers love each other(: and deep down i love em truck loads too

highlight of the day! today is mints BDAY!!!!!!
HAPPY BIRTHDAY BABE!
its yr nineteenth bday...i love u so much MIUM!

my feelings are just so complicated...
i don't feeling like working it out and i dont know why...):

all the best for ur vball competition....i'll b supporting...

i had a friend...a cyber friend(:

2007-04-08T19:49:00.000+08:00

i know it wrong to do this.
but i need time to sort out my feelings
i dn wanna b unfair

have been eating lyk a piggy these days tsktsk
cant cont lyk that~!haha
had CIP on the 5th!
everything went smoothly
get to know a few kids and they were so damn cute! haha
we come to realise that they brg no harm(:
took dem for a mini walkaton ard their sch and i have 2 boys in my hands
one is glenn and the other one taufik!
went bac to sch and they had their tea break
help them peel their oranges
and aft the tea break jo,min and me went back to class with em
sing songs to them, keep them company while their tcher sort out their admin stuff.
and we brainstorm whateva childhood song we know haha
and obviously min dn have any childhood days tsk!
we sang alot(:
baobei can rmb too! haha
den went up to the hall for a skit and games prepared for them.
its abt healthy lifestyle
and im the pear! there are lot of fruits also
(:
had games and everything ended.
i stole chocolates! =Xand ate it~

thanks for the night(:
im loving it<3

-yrs words nv fail to pierce thru my heart
how many times must i feel the pain):

2007-03-31T16:06:00.000+08:00

i feel so bad can! im sorry really sorry
the more u wan; u wont get it
and this is pretty true...tsk!
i make it up alright(:

its tiring to tell lies aft lies
when den it stop?
when can everything b back to normal?
why things have to go the other way round and make it so difficult for everyone
):

2007-03-29T21:13:00.000+08:00

everything seems out of place.
im worried
but there doesnt seems to have any sense of urgency in u
i know im just an extra
but pls tc of yrself.
think twice b4 u do things.
u still have my love.

2007-03-20T18:23:00.000+08:00

finally i m blogging(:

last wk was hols and thou its hols im like busying with other things den focusing on my studies tsktsk

went tanglin sec for trngs on tues thurs and sat

its fun trng with the tanglin gers.. and also my netball gers... they nv fail to make me smile(:

i love dem all mwahs...

went town on fri with my mom and all... she force me to eat this eat that...

but i love to go out with her

she bought me a shirt... and bought my sis 3! hah!

i love her as much(:

had sakura at night

its was yummilicious... and i felt so bloated lah!

the IRRITATING one that i loved!♥

CANDID! introduce u my BRO!

The Craziest Companion i Ever had♥

i cant control my feelings;

2007-03-12T13:20:00.000+08:00

fossil fuel is nice(:
thanks i m loving it! and i wan more !!!
lets try out other flavours as well alright(:

just by having you by myside, is all i wan and needed<3

ur right, something are best left unknown(:

2007-03-07T21:43:00.001+08:00

had pet rocket experiment today! hah!
it was fun(:
mini and me paired up, jo and sally pair up
and our rocket making was a successful one(:
our fly quite far eh! hah

today was a long day fer me...
aft sch had trng and friendly...
at kallang
b4 that went to have our lunch and aft eating the mee goreng i feel so unconfortable lah~
luckily nv vomit out -.-
had trng and den had friendly...
seriously i dunnoe whats wrong with me...
im lyk so lousy... ):
ah damn... my gers all did a very gd job...
i see the seriousness in them... keep it up...!
sze qi was so stressed up
poor ger...but she did a gd job...(:
abby too... in fact everyone did well(:
had mcflurry for dinner...
afteer eating i regretted it... x(

just one word from u a day?!
thats not enuff boy~
im getting use to ur footsteps...
issit a right or wrong thing?

its lyk im taking the goddamn initiative
u gd!

2007-03-06T23:11:00.000+08:00

u are such an idiot idiot idiot
nv had i coma across someone lyk u
so dead!!!!!!
argh im gg crazy...
what are u trying to do?
what are u trying to say?
i cant figure a thing~
what are u expressing?

i shall not care anymore...
its making me lose control.
IM PISSED!

2007-03-05T21:40:00.001+08:00

feeling damn weird! argh

2007-03-04T22:38:00.000+08:00

kfc-ed today~
yummy...
its been long since i ate it...(:
thanks(:

2007-02-27T23:25:00.000+08:00

last wk went to visit my grandma and spent my cny over dere...
get the chance to relax myself alil~
had fun there thou(:
at least for the time being im away from sorrows(:

back to sch and im feeling so damn lethargic now
things are getting better and at times is lyk getting worst
its always on and off
i really dont know what to do...
can u tell me pls?
pull me out of this dark pit...

i love NING~!
how sweet of u ...
escape! awaiting us!!!
lets go play till we vomit k!
mwahs...love u lots...

only u have the power to everything.

2007-02-18T10:40:00.000+08:00

happy cny to everyone...

i dn wan to get hurt agn pls

2007-02-16T22:34:00.000+08:00

i dunnoe what to do anymore...
stay and wait...
and see u enter another room of happiness?
who m i to u?
tell me...): i wan to know...

2007-02-13T06:37:00.000+08:00

things ended ytd...
everything cleared by ytd...
including the sadness u gave me... i packed it in a small box and threw it away...
i nv wan it bac...cos it hurts a trillion.
u ran away, and left me behind.
u lied, leaving me wandering.
why do u hav to b the one that gave me the sweetiest memories and be the one whom gave me heartaches...
this yr plus isnt enuff for anything?
including the new fond who u knew just a short period of time?
from that moment my heart has totally shattered.
why do u have to step on my heart so hard?
what have i done to deserve this treatment?
what have i not done enuff to salvage the r/s?
up till now i dunnoe where i went wrong...
u left me wandering agn...
slpless nights is cos of u...
heartaches is cos of u

everything comes to an end and i know including this.
thanks for the memories...i wont forget...trust me
u gave me the best moment i ever wanted(:
at least i felt the love from u once...

you had my blessing...
goodbye my lover(:

you stole my heart away...
and threw it away...

2007-02-12T00:03:00.000+08:00

u wan to start everything from zero?
i'll grant u the wish
all the best...

im gg to start my life a new...(:
i love my precious, mylover, sallyyyy, jojooo
and those hu are there for me!
i love aunty uncle and ireena...
i love u no more...
=P

give me the strength to move on
A div, A lvls here i come
yippie!!!

2007-02-11T21:23:00.001+08:00

a new begining...

2007-02-09T11:40:00.000+08:00

first of all i really have to wish my PRECIOUS

HAPPY belated BIRTHDAY!
hehe...
sry precious cant celebrate with u this yr... nvm i make it up for u ok?!
i miss her so much...(:

finished my ct today
i think im gonna flung my acc paper...hah!
er... practically what i studied didnt come out much
where as the one i didnt study came out!
dividend cover?!dividend yield...?!
ahh madness...
cant balance as well... might as well die off lah!
DAMN!
hmmm thou they say ct isnt iimpt but its demoralising if didnt do well...
so im waiting to get demoralised hah!

give me ur love once agn

2007-02-05T19:48:00.001+08:00

when den will everything fall back into its original position agn?
im left in this agony for months and there aint any improvements...
pls... i really wan to wait for the day to come

no worries is all fake...
i cant stop thinking or even try to predict what will happen nxt
i long to b happy...
and u know only u can give it to me
why is everything so tough...
mi the one making it?
im selfish and i wan u all by myself...
why issit so difficult...
i dn understand...
why issit always on and off...
i dn wan...i dn lyk the feeling at all...
baby

2007-02-05T19:48:00.000+08:00

2007-02-03T12:11:00.000+08:00

damn common test is nxt wk and i guess im going to flung it cos im not prepared at all...
everyone lyk studying but im not... ):
hais... failed two maths test consecutively...and its really demoralising...
the first one on pnc failed bcos im suckd at it...
probability test failed bcos i was dozing off and not concentrating...
hais... how how how?!!!!
damn stressed...tsk tsk
chemistry to me is lyk things i know are everywhere... and its not organise in my stupid brain...
oh man!!!
distractions here and dere... think gonna say bye bye to my As...
fuck!

went up to receive the trohpy and damn...so embarrassing hah!nah its fun thou
cos there is prescence of my chirpy netball gers...
alright there cant get settled down b4 the prize presentation haha...
they are fun to b with
with em...trngs nv gonna b boring and instead full of laughther...
crappy as well...(:
i love em lots and our team manager!! mdm sin...(:

2007-01-30T19:30:00.000+08:00

im lost once agn
i cant control agn):
its my fault...
its always my fault...
even arguements, im always the one hu started it...
i screwed everything
im to b blame
u are right;
im nth...im wasting ur time...
im not worth 80 cents.
i dn deserve u to wait for me outside sch
i m to b blame cos i nv reply ur msg
i deserve waiting for so long...
i deserve to b ignore, b hurt, b alone
nt ur fault, its mine
no sacarstism...
its real...

2007-01-21T11:43:00.000+08:00

how i wish it will b peaceful throughout...
how i wish ur brain starts to function properly and think(:
im stuck,
stuck in yr heart):

2007-01-21T00:46:00.000+08:00

piggyback piggyback!!!
the feeling was real cool...
though distance is short(:
lovelove

2007-01-19T22:42:00.000+08:00

my whole body is lyk aching...
continous days of exercising...i think im real tired man...
but it feels great.

why cant it always end with a warm hug and 3 sweet words and wrap it up with a sweet dream.
it always have to b the other way round.
got angry and fight...
oh fuck when will it stop
im really fed up and tired.

you came back agn
and i hope u were dead.
ihope u vanish from the earth
i hope theres nv a YOU! ):
get lost pls, dont come near.

it was syahida's and nadia's bday ytd...
happy birthday gers(:
best wishes
and hope syahida can get well soon
love ya...

been home late these wks and i think im soon gonna b bann from gg out...
noooo...i have my reasons... its not i loiter outside...
i still diid my work and stuff...
sch end late and there must b sacrifices...
but why aft so much sacrifices there aint any improvements?
im really exhausted...
but im still trying, nv give up
what abt u?
have u given up way back?
or are u at the verge of it?

2007-01-15T23:33:00.000+08:00

its been days since i update my BLOGGY!!
haha was damn lazy ...

happy 15th month stupid
it was ytd and we went to sentosa...
and it WE!his family ah min and me
haha
a big grp thou
hmmm initially was purely sitting down and MAKaN!!!!
after that played vB...
with his cousins and all..
den came the MAID as well -.-
she's lyk pro?
haha smack ah min's face hard with the ball...
poorthing huh...awwwww....
we assume she is from the national team of her country perhaps?!
got ourselves ice cream and its yummy can
play games... its childish but still participate throw darts, ahdear go fishing...play bowling(mini), basketball(mini as well)
won prizes... (:
got ourselves paintings on our arms and hands (:
cool~

had our lunch and we went to soak ourself ,
hah play passing,
frisbee... den later monkey... more and more ppl join in
his cousins climb on him and he go throwin them into the water... i know they were enjoying... cos they are willing to get thrown for umpteen times hah!
played with lil shauna... she is pretty, and CUTE! really a soft spoken girl... but playful too(: i love her lots... she is busing picking up seaweed...

aft that uncle join us and throw the kids one by one from his shoulder...
ltr we decided to swim across... the kids were brave they swim all the way there...(:
after all the swimming biz we played a ball game...
i dunnoe how to describe... but that was real fun
got to do dunnoe how many times push ups lah!
damn! feel so muscular lah
haha wash up and went for sakae...
it was damn fulll(:
it was a day full of laughther and all(:
i really enjoyed myself...
love u...(:

2007-01-09T21:04:00.000+08:00

hais
even if vow it will still happens...
this time i m told to get lost
what can b more hurtful den this two words

2007-01-03T22:41:00.000+08:00

today was the start of sch.
hmmm it was a short day thou
and had trng aft sch...
done the circuit, with suicide...combine lah...
but i m glad that all the gers pull it thru(:
this is smth that i m proud of them.
abby she is great(: can see she really endure till the very end
all gers motivate each other and i think is pleasant to see that(:
keep up the gd work gers...
u gers rawk my sock^^v

i dunnoe whether things had change to b better
somehow smth is still missing...
what is it?
can anyone tell me?
i need to know badly):

2007-01-02T22:52:00.000+08:00

tml's the start of sch...
its dread!
hopefully everything wont b a disaster (:

and hopefully everything turn out to b gd for everyone...
i hope things btw us can b better
cos i think i cant take it alr...);

i will buy u ur lucky object dn worry(:

ur prescence is all i need(:
loved-

2007-01-02T10:19:00.000+08:00

My shattered dreams and broken heart
Are mending on the shelf.
I saw you
Holding hands,
standing close to someone else.
Now I sit all alone,wishing all my feeling was gone
I gave my best to you
Nothing for me to do
But have one last cry.
One last cry
Before I leave it all behind.I gotta put you out of my mind
This time, stop living a lie.I guess I'm down to my last cry.
Cry......
I was here, you were there,
Guess we never could agree.
While the sun shines on you,
I need some love to rain on me.
Still I sit all alone,wishing all my feeling was gone
Gotta get over you,nothing for me to do
But have one last cry.
One last cry,
Before I leave it all behind.I gotta put you out of my mind
This time, stop living a lie.
I know I gotta be strong, cuz 'round me
Life goes on and on and on and on
I'm gonna dry my eyes
Right after I have myOne last cry.
One last cry,Before I leave it all behind.
I gotta put you out of my mind
For the very last time been living a lie.
I guess I'm down, I guess I'm down,I guess I'm down.......to my last cry........

2007-01-01T21:50:00.000+08:00

it seems lyk i wont have a gd new yr for me...
i tot everything will turn out to b better aft what i had said to u...
but aint work

why can u b so different;
the one u were an hr ago was passionate, every word comes out from ur mouth sounds so real and sincere...ur every move just make me smile...ur hugs are so warm and true
an hr later u totally changed into another person;
u change into someone so unfamiliar...
ur attitude was lyk a stranger to me...
every word sounds doubly hurtful,
it nv fail to make my tears fall.
my heart just ache lyk nobody's biz...

is the the gift i got for this new yr?

2006-12-30T10:20:00.000+08:00

xmas over and now a brand new yr is coming
It will b a busy yr ahead...
many things to do and upcoming obstacles...
gdness i dn wan ):
had a pleasant xmas count down with pei pei min and dear(:
now a new yr count down is coming!!!
hmm think there wld b only a few that we will celebrate with ):
last yr was memorable...we went to lynn hse and count down... her father was so damn funny(:
this yr will b different... i guess...

ytd went swimming
my small cousin was damn cute(: he was shivering all the way lah... me too cos its so cold...
aft swimming went for dinner and went home!(:

u left me alone agn... ):
my heart really sink to the bottom...
pls dont do this to me agn...

hw long can i tolerate?

2006-12-21T21:49:00.000+08:00

u cant resist the temptation
i wont blame u...
i wont b lyk last time...

2006-12-21T10:01:00.000+08:00

happy feet was damn nice...
those baby penguins were lyk damn cute...
everything was cute(: woo i lyk...

went out with pei pei lover and ah dear ytd...
the first thing was to look for a place to makan hah...
went to zam zam and have indian food...
the food there were nice and cheap(:
everyone was damn full aft the meal and when we start to shop we were lyk lazy?! haha...
for me is alright but for pei pei and lover it wasnt so...
didnt buy anyth much
dunno whats wrong with him so damn lame!
my lover's getting high blood pressure bcos of him
peipei also cant tahan him
haha
i was sicky so i dn hav the energy to go whack him =X
sunday!!!
im waiting for the day to come...
hmm but... i scared i cant go ):

oh ya saw lek and her bf martin...this tym he did smile at us this is a gd thing(:
its been long since i see em...
tsk tsk i really miss my other gers....):
my precious and my ah zheng bang too):

2006-12-19T10:23:00.000+08:00

what's wrong with me...
im sorry...
i know i did smth wrong and i said something really wrong...
its not the trust is the fear that is in me.
i dn wan to have the same ending...
ppl say they dont mind; in the end the result is still the same...
they mind everything):

2006-12-18T00:22:00.000+08:00

i cant seems to put the past down and move ahead.
im afraid the new yr ahead will b damn tough for me,
i;ve got this feeling it will.
lil things i got so worried abt, hw can i concentrate? ):
hw i wish you know what im thinkin always...
i dn wan history to repeat itself...
if it does, i know this tym i wont b able to tk it anymore...

nv wan the distance to drift apart

2006-12-17T14:13:00.000+08:00

my heart still wandering
the whole day i just cant settle down...
i dunnoe what to do and i m lost )': agn

2006-12-16T23:01:00.000+08:00

hais why the fear comes back to me agn...
i dn wan...): im feeling terrible now...
thou he is not ard but it doesnt seems to b easy for me...
when he's online my heart just cant settle
thinking what will he do hu will he know and all...
my heart really aches alot...
hais why why?!!!
i dn wan to b lyk her...)':
i dn wan...
i know i will b more hurt den she did...
cos i step in deeper den she does...
no one can settle me down...
cos i m feeling really lost...
im scared.really...hu knows my feeling
none,
nt even u know how i feels...
maybe u nv knew.

2006-12-14T23:11:00.000+08:00

i was tired and my ankle kena agn... third tym...i sprained it within a month or smth
omg... this tym is much more serious cos i cld hear the 'crack' sound when i fall... ):
hope it wld b fine... im ice-ing it nw hah!
we lost our last game,
nvtheless it was a gd fight...
everyone put in their best in the game throughout the 4 quaters(:
mk changes given by coach and all...
u gers rawks(:
those who are sick still step into the court and fight well
thats the spirit n i lyk it
keep it up(:

what u had said to me i'll rmb
sorry i scolded u...)':
its my fault.
but thanks for those words(:
have fun miss u

dere are too many qns i dunno hw to ans
i dunno wat to say
i fear my words will hurt n i'll lost u even as a fren
im sry...

2006-12-14T10:45:00.001+08:00

14.12.06
this tym its abit diff

2006-12-13T22:35:00.000+08:00

afte sooo sooo sooo long
finally i got to know the ans to my qns
the ans i desire to know...
i've got my ans
my feeling nw aint angry aint sad...
im calm...
why why why?!

things past and i hope i wont dwell on it
cos i dn want to start an arguement that brgs everything to the pt of no return...
lyk what she say... "kiss the past and say gdbye"...

i owe him an apology...
im sorry friend...
nw i know how u felt then...
the eagerness to help a friend of urs
i felt it...
im sorry...very very sorry...
but now everything is fine... and i know u have no worres anymore...
everyone needs a chance...
this chance given had changed him ...
trust him (:

love u

2006-12-13T20:08:00.000+08:00

if only time cld stop at those days...
hw long can it substain?
or issit just temporarily?
hw i wish i cld go and have fun with no worries...
i really hope i cld go...
all i wan is to go...
the only thing i thought of is what if i cld go....
why cant i go?! ):

2006-12-12T10:28:00.000+08:00

monopoly is fun(:
brgs laughther and threats(:

i enjoyed myself for thses days...thanks(:

hw nice wld it b if everything remain lyk this...
just laughthers and no worries...
nevertheless i know its all for the time being...

2006-12-04T10:47:00.000+08:00

my hershey's kisses(: damn big

ytd was standard chartered marathon...and we ran the 10km women marathon...

met up wityh yihong, mingyi and my lover they took cab den waited for me in the cab...

went to esplanade and waited at the meeting point...

the marathon for women started only at 7.30 am and we were they so early...haha...

but everyone completed the race!!! well done....(:

had subway with peipei and lover...and ahdear came ltr...

went home... and i slpt...soundly (:

nxt yr shall join pei pei to b volunteers the mroe the merrier

so many cuts on my leg now...tsk tsk...

tml is our game day agn...

i hope for the best (:

tc of urself cos u are leaving...no worries everyone will miss u alright...

i dn think they will lyk the peace and quietness when u are not ard(:

2006-12-01T20:39:00.000+08:00

even with u close to me
i felt the insecurity too...
i thought it wasnt so bad if u are beside me...
why things are becoming from bad to worst?
its hurting...
dont go hurting me this way...
im scared that i cant take it...

rmb the 1st tym we met?
the hatred over ruled the love...
i luff at myself when i thought back...
its a miracle to me... its a magic
once a fantasy of me and u
but nw
the fantasy is over...
its the start of the nightmare...
or has it started long ago?
i cant control my emotional anymore...
)';

2006-12-01T09:50:00.000+08:00

u dont wan to force but to lyk things to occur naturally...
sry if i mk u think that im forcing u to do it..
cos it naturally happened months back

i find myself fcuking stubborn...
advise given and all but yet im still standing at the same pt...
nv progress...
its not those words are wasted...
its bcos deep inside...the feeling is still dere...

i smile just to see u smile(:

2006-11-30T22:21:00.000+08:00

yeah had family bbq ytd and it was fun and filling... =X
the food was nice man! esp the chicken wings and hotdogs..

guess what we only start our bbq at 10pm?!

with my father everything was damn great he chop chop start the fire...so no need to wait very long lah can start bbq-ing...

every1 enjoyed themselve and its memorable(:
i had fun too...

my sis, cousin, myMOM, and my DAD!

my mom was doin the job man.. she dont lyk bbq and yet...lol

drank ytd and was alil swaying and when i m tokin on the phone... hmm somehw it sounds weird....at least to some1 idiot!

left with 4 more days and i'll say bye to u alright!(:

pls come back cos i owe u chocos

things changed and u agreed...

the love isnt strong for me anymore...

whats happening boy

2006-11-28T19:50:00.000+08:00

went to sch today to help mdm sin with the pe dep. stuff...
ray, drea, shyahida and abby plus ME! went to help out...
packed all those things in boxes...

took all we can haha... (: cool...
it was fun thou...
we didnt have much to do and we are eager to do everything that is given to us...
laugh and joke and time flies...

tml had trng... hope the weather wld b fine...
think my ankle is getting better... hopefully i wont trigger it tml...if not.. think dont need to play anymore already ((:

2006-11-27T13:49:00.000+08:00

sprained my ankle and i still went out with my lover ytd! haha
met ah dear and went to collect his trophy for the 3 on 3 baskteball game...
im sorry i was late for 44 mins but it isnt my fault cos he nv tell me he woke up early...
sand he ask me to tk my time...
but alright i was late and got bullied by him for 44 mins in returns... thanks man! i dont really need it anw...
gt the trophy off we went for lunch...
ate at hkcafe and went off
i meet ah min and we went to buy shorts with the help of my mom!
(: went to my mom's workplace and got the shorts...
and make our way to expo...hoping that we might buy adidas stuff there bcos there is a sale...in the end... we end up cursing and swearing...haha... nth much to buy lah dunnoe why those ppl grab so much...
sickening...so both of us got to make our way back wuth our hands empty
went to ms and did shopping wooo....
ah min say she see me limping lyk very xin ku hah!
er it hurt alil lah...and she say its lyk trotters...=X
we sat down somewhere and had ice-cream! yummy.... and this lil boy play with us he was lyk so happy and excited but we both dont know why is he so excited hah!
kids are hard to understand thats what i told her... (:
i spent alot!!! and i didnt work... tsk tsk...
gottta save up!!! ):

had trng today
we ran outside and i feel weird...haha cos i m limping when i ran... and my left leg felt so tensed up...cos i m putting alot of weigh and force on that leg... and my right ankle is still swollen!
but luckily got the ankle guard... whe trnging with it i feel much more secure...(:
hmmm shooting percentage totally sux today... dunnoe whats wrong with me... mm i lack of that aggressiveness lah...gdness... gt to b more daring in my runs and more AGGRESSIVE!!!!!
all the best for the nxt game gers.. i know we can do it!! (:

pls stop making me worrying abt u...
u are metally and physically down...
and so im...
its not always u who is getting it...
ppl ard get it too...
dont stay outside for the whole day even at nights...
its dangerous u shld know...
stop everything...im tired and u are too
stop telling every1 and let them tell u how stupid im...
i dont need all these...

2006-11-24T08:15:00.000+08:00

woke up damn early in the morning to wake ahdear up
he has his test
asked him whether he had studied he said its easy...
hmmm aft listening to how easy it is... i think he can do it lah so i keep my mouth shut...
gd luck ok!
gg to sch for shooting ltr... gdness... bet i m the only one hu will shoot first
andrea and the rest will b there abit later...
got to rush down ltr...hmmm
and also got to go and collect my marathon stuff...

cant slp ytd night... m thinking alot of things agn...
i cant stop thinking, i feel tired...):

i hate you, but i love you and i cant stop thinking of you

2006-11-23T10:04:00.000+08:00

trng was alright ytd ...
was raining heavily agn...
went to the hall to do shutters and fitness... and yeah the rain stop and we carry on with out court work...(:
played centre
omgosh... im sucked at it running everywhere and sometimes dunnoe where to run... )':

she is strong...
still smiling(:
but its painful to see her this way...
hope everything will b fine for u...

game is gonna start this sat.
hmm.. all the best to the game...
we have trained so hard... and every1 counts...(:
i love my team lotsa...

and sat i might hav my subway!!!
ohh yummy...

2006-11-19T21:41:00.001+08:00

went to celebrate lynn's birthday ytd!
went to her hse and makan... woo nice ok!
her mummy's cooking are great yummiclious also..

its been long since we went over her place for dinner...

peipei and her bf joined us abit later...

played monopoly.. wasnt in the mood so i bcome the banker's assistant! my lover was the banker haha...
aft tthat was the cutting cake session~

the cake was yummy too...(:
HAPPY 18th BIRTHDAY myMAN!

love u lots and best wishes for everything mwahs

lynnest soh playing monopoly hah! peipei and mingyang

the yummilicous cake

lovers

pls listen to what others have to say...

they still love u no matter what...

sorry for causing all the lecturing u've got...

but they wan u to b good...

when will the day come whereby u hear all those things and do it...

u did progress....

but u went back to the starting point agn

dont throw away all the benefits...

2006-11-19T10:47:00.000+08:00

totally numb with all these stuff...
smth wrong in me... but i did not know why...
i must b crazy...
why u have to do this to me?

blackout ytd...
out in the sun for too long w/o drinking enuff water...
aft my friendly i went for basketball...
im very tired....i swear im... nv had i felt this way b4...

i've somehow lost trust in u...
u are telling things which make things worst... when i need u, u are there...
but what u had done... makes me kinda scared of u...
u wan it to... u are trying to tk it away from me...

2006-11-17T10:27:00.000+08:00

Total Eclipse Of The Heart
turn around,
every now and then i get a little bit lonely
and you're never coming round
turn around,
every now and then i get a little bit tired
of listening to the sound of my tears
turn around,
every now and then i get a little bit nervous
that the best of all the years have gone by
turn around,
every now and then i get a little bit terrified
and then i see the look in your eyes
turn around bright eyes,
every now and then i fall apart
turn around bright eyes,
every now and then i fall apart
and i need you now tonight
and i need you more than ever
and if you'll only hold me tight
we'll be holding on forever
and we'll only be making it right
cause we'll never be wrong together
we can take it to the end of the line
your love is like a shadow
on me all of the time (all of the time)
i don't know what to do and i'm always in the dark
we're living in a powder keg and giving off sparks
i really need you tonight
forever's gonna start tonight
forever's gonna start tonight
once upon a time i was falling in love
but now i'm only falling apart
there's nothing i can do
a total eclipse of the heart
once upon a time there was light in my life
but now there's only love in the dark
nothing i can say
a total eclipse of the heart
turn around,
every now and then i know you'll never be the boy
you always you wanted to be
turn around,
every now and then i know there's no one
in the universe as magical and wonderous as you
turn around bright eyes,
every now and then i fall apart
turn around bright eyes,
every now and then i fall apart
and i need you now tonight
and i need you more than ever
and we'll only be making it right
cause we'll never be wrong together
we can take it to the end of the line
your love is like a shadow
on me all of the time (all of the time)
i don't know what to do and i'm always in the dark
we're living in a powder keg and giving off sparks
i really need you tonight
forever's gonna start tonight
forever's gonna start tonight
(once upon a time i was falling in love)
but now i'm only falling apart
there's nothing i can do
a total eclipse of the heart

2006-11-16T01:04:00.000+08:00

while waiting for my hair to dry i shall blog abt ytd...(:
had trng ...
coach didnt come down instead nadia took over...
did fitness and alll...
had meeting and finally ika had finished her a levels and we are planing to have a netball outting soon~~~

aft showering met my lover and we headed to marina bay
naughty lek bluff us shes not coming...tsktsk
and her martin came too...(:
hopefully he rmb us by now and will kindly say hi when we bump into one another agn haha
like what his gf says he is blur... =X
get to know peipei's bf mingyang tooo!!!
haha he's a cute guy lah...
peipei really fortunate...
he crap alot...
but this isnt a bad thing... cos he make the atmosphere less cold and more lively...
but one thing abt him is... he keep asking us to vote for his friend... haha in superstar...
he and ah min talk alot abt this...(:
but can see he treat our peipei not bad too... which we are happy to see...(:
den sally and stan came... they were late haha
cos they went zoo(:
den yihong and chenwei tooo~
wah chenwei can really eat alot lah... sucha big appetite.... bagus...
and all have partners only left me and ah min
so we are the couple of the day... she cook for me i cook for her
man its simply too loving...hah!
i love her to bits <3>u are all i need and wan...
but why...?

sry i disturb u during ur slp... nxt time wont sorry

2006-11-15T11:10:00.000+08:00

i've given what i can give...
ur feelings are fluctuating...
i dont know what u wan...
sometimes i can feel ur love and i know i m the only one in ur arms...
but at times... i felt the coldness towards me...
why?
hais know you are stressed abt ur work...
i hope u can do well also..
jiayou...

u went off and thought thru...
but ur decision still the same...
sorry i need some time...
i m confused
i dont know what to do...

2006-11-14T22:11:00.000+08:00

met up with ah min and we went for interview...
er... i think no1 will employ me due to my busy schedule... =X
we were lyk laughing but yar it wasnt that scary as we thought...
oh maybe we shld try out bubble tea eh~
haha ah min got lobang... (: sounds fun

i felt nth inside me at that pt of time...

met up with my precious...(:
we had dinner....
and i m lyk practically eating the whole day... and now my stomach is filled with food!!!gdness...
piggy piggy...
but i still enjoy the talk with my precious
she is there for me....i love her lots...as much as u can think (:

i love mylover tooo.....mwahs...

2006-11-14T10:16:00.001+08:00

i've lost...

2006-11-13T21:26:00.000+08:00

i just cant control my tears....
i dont dare think of anything at this pt of time...
no matter how and what it is...
i'll b strong(: