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(I don't use this blog often,just feel like changing the skin lol:))

when you look me in the eyes,
and tell me you love me.
Everything's alright.
When you look me in the eyes,
i catch a glimpse of heaven.
I found my paradise.

im lost once agn
i cant control agn):
its my fault...
its always my fault...
even arguements, im always the one hu started it...
i screwed everything
im to b blame
u are right;
im nth...im wasting ur time...
im not worth 80 cents.
i dn deserve u to wait for me outside sch
i m to b blame cos i nv reply ur msg
i deserve waiting for so long...
i deserve to b ignore, b hurt, b alone
nt ur fault, its mine
no sacarstism...
its real...

how i wish it will b peaceful throughout...
how i wish ur brain starts to function properly and think(:
im stuck,
stuck in yr heart):

piggyback piggyback!!!
the feeling was real cool...
though distance is short(:
lovelove

my whole body is lyk aching...
continous days of exercising...i think im real tired man...
but it feels great.

why cant it always end with a warm hug and 3 sweet words and wrap it up with a sweet dream.
it always have to b the other way round.
got angry and fight...
oh fuck when will it stop
im really fed up and tired.

you came back agn
and i hope u were dead.
ihope u vanish from the earth
i hope theres nv a YOU! ):
get lost pls, dont come near.

it was syahida's and nadia's bday ytd...
happy birthday gers(:
best wishes
and hope syahida can get well soon
love ya...

been home late these wks and i think im soon gonna b bann from gg out...
noooo...i have my reasons... its not i loiter outside...
i still diid my work and stuff...
sch end late and there must b sacrifices...
but why aft so much sacrifices there aint any improvements?
im really exhausted...
but im still trying, nv give up
what abt u?
have u given up way back?
or are u at the verge of it?

its been days since i update my BLOGGY!!
haha was damn lazy ...

happy 15th month stupid
it was ytd and we went to sentosa...
and it WE!his family ah min and me
haha
a big grp thou
hmmm initially was purely sitting down and MAKaN!!!!
after that played vB...
with his cousins and all..
den came the MAID as well -.-
she's lyk pro?
haha smack ah min's face hard with the ball...
poorthing huh...awwwww....
we assume she is from the national team of her country perhaps?!
got ourselves ice cream and its yummy can
play games... its childish but still participate throw darts, ahdear go fishing...play bowling(mini), basketball(mini as well)
won prizes... (:
got ourselves paintings on our arms and hands (:
cool~

had our lunch and we went to soak ourself ,
hah play passing,
frisbee... den later monkey... more and more ppl join in
his cousins climb on him and he go throwin them into the water... i know they were enjoying... cos they are willing to get thrown for umpteen times hah!
played with lil shauna... she is pretty, and CUTE! really a soft spoken girl... but playful too(: i love her lots... she is busing picking up seaweed...

aft that uncle join us and throw the kids one by one from his shoulder...
ltr we decided to swim across... the kids were brave they swim all the way there...(:
after all the swimming biz we played a ball game...
i dunnoe how to describe... but that was real fun
got to do dunnoe how many times push ups lah!
damn! feel so muscular lah
haha wash up and went for sakae...
it was damn fulll(:
it was a day full of laughther and all(:
i really enjoyed myself...
love u...(:

hais
even if vow it will still happens...
this time i m told to get lost
what can b more hurtful den this two words

today was the start of sch.
hmmm it was a short day thou
and had trng aft sch...
done the circuit, with suicide...combine lah...
but i m glad that all the gers pull it thru(:
this is smth that i m proud of them.
abby she is great(: can see she really endure till the very end
all gers motivate each other and i think is pleasant to see that(:
keep up the gd work gers...
u gers rawk my sock^^v

i dunnoe whether things had change to b better
somehow smth is still missing...
what is it?
can anyone tell me?
i need to know badly):

tml's the start of sch...
its dread!
hopefully everything wont b a disaster (:

and hopefully everything turn out to b gd for everyone...
i hope things btw us can b better
cos i think i cant take it alr...);

i will buy u ur lucky object dn worry(:

ur prescence is all i need(:
loved-

My shattered dreams and broken heart
Are mending on the shelf.
I saw you
Holding hands,
standing close to someone else.
Now I sit all alone,wishing all my feeling was gone
I gave my best to you
Nothing for me to do
But have one last cry.
One last cry
Before I leave it all behind.I gotta put you out of my mind
This time, stop living a lie.I guess I'm down to my last cry.
Cry......
I was here, you were there,
Guess we never could agree.
While the sun shines on you,
I need some love to rain on me.
Still I sit all alone,wishing all my feeling was gone
Gotta get over you,nothing for me to do
But have one last cry.
One last cry,
Before I leave it all behind.I gotta put you out of my mind
This time, stop living a lie.
I know I gotta be strong, cuz 'round me
Life goes on and on and on and on
I'm gonna dry my eyes
Right after I have myOne last cry.
One last cry,Before I leave it all behind.
I gotta put you out of my mind
For the very last time been living a lie.
I guess I'm down, I guess I'm down,I guess I'm down.......to my last cry........

it seems lyk i wont have a gd new yr for me...
i tot everything will turn out to b better aft what i had said to u...
but aint work

why can u b so different;
the one u were an hr ago was passionate, every word comes out from ur mouth sounds so real and sincere...ur every move just make me smile...ur hugs are so warm and true
an hr later u totally changed into another person;
u change into someone so unfamiliar...
ur attitude was lyk a stranger to me...
every word sounds doubly hurtful,
it nv fail to make my tears fall.
my heart just ache lyk nobody's biz...

is the the gift i got for this new yr?

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