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(I don't use this blog often,just feel like changing the skin lol:))

when you look me in the eyes,
and tell me you love me.
Everything's alright.
When you look me in the eyes,
i catch a glimpse of heaven.
I found my paradise.

xmas over and now a brand new yr is coming
It will b a busy yr ahead...
many things to do and upcoming obstacles...
gdness i dn wan ):
had a pleasant xmas count down with pei pei min and dear(:
now a new yr count down is coming!!!
hmm think there wld b only a few that we will celebrate with ):
last yr was memorable...we went to lynn hse and count down... her father was so damn funny(:
this yr will b different... i guess...

ytd went swimming
my small cousin was damn cute(: he was shivering all the way lah... me too cos its so cold...
aft swimming went for dinner and went home!(:

u left me alone agn... ):
my heart really sink to the bottom...
pls dont do this to me agn...

hw long can i tolerate?

u cant resist the temptation
i wont blame u...
i wont b lyk last time...

happy feet was damn nice...
those baby penguins were lyk damn cute...
everything was cute(: woo i lyk...

went out with pei pei lover and ah dear ytd...
the first thing was to look for a place to makan hah...
went to zam zam and have indian food...
the food there were nice and cheap(:
everyone was damn full aft the meal and when we start to shop we were lyk lazy?! haha...
for me is alright but for pei pei and lover it wasnt so...
didnt buy anyth much
dunno whats wrong with him so damn lame!
my lover's getting high blood pressure bcos of him
peipei also cant tahan him
haha
i was sicky so i dn hav the energy to go whack him =X
sunday!!!
im waiting for the day to come...
hmm but... i scared i cant go ):

oh ya saw lek and her bf martin...this tym he did smile at us this is a gd thing(:
its been long since i see em...
tsk tsk i really miss my other gers....):
my precious and my ah zheng bang too):

what's wrong with me...
im sorry...
i know i did smth wrong and i said something really wrong...
its not the trust is the fear that is in me.
i dn wan to have the same ending...
ppl say they dont mind; in the end the result is still the same...
they mind everything):

i cant seems to put the past down and move ahead.
im afraid the new yr ahead will b damn tough for me,
i;ve got this feeling it will.
lil things i got so worried abt, hw can i concentrate? ):
hw i wish you know what im thinkin always...
i dn wan history to repeat itself...
if it does, i know this tym i wont b able to tk it anymore...

nv wan the distance to drift apart

my heart still wandering
the whole day i just cant settle down...
i dunnoe what to do and i m lost )': agn

hais why the fear comes back to me agn...
i dn wan...): im feeling terrible now...
thou he is not ard but it doesnt seems to b easy for me...
when he's online my heart just cant settle
thinking what will he do hu will he know and all...
my heart really aches alot...
hais why why?!!!
i dn wan to b lyk her...)':
i dn wan...
i know i will b more hurt den she did...
cos i step in deeper den she does...
no one can settle me down...
cos i m feeling really lost...
im scared.really...hu knows my feeling
none,
nt even u know how i feels...
maybe u nv knew.

i was tired and my ankle kena agn... third tym...i sprained it within a month or smth
omg... this tym is much more serious cos i cld hear the 'crack' sound when i fall... ):
hope it wld b fine... im ice-ing it nw hah!
we lost our last game,
nvtheless it was a gd fight...
everyone put in their best in the game throughout the 4 quaters(:
mk changes given by coach and all...
u gers rawks(:
those who are sick still step into the court and fight well
thats the spirit n i lyk it
keep it up(:


what u had said to me i'll rmb
sorry i scolded u...)':
its my fault.
but thanks for those words(:
have fun miss u

dere are too many qns i dunno hw to ans
i dunno wat to say
i fear my words will hurt n i'll lost u even as a fren
im sry...

14.12.06
this tym its abit diff

afte sooo sooo sooo long
finally i got to know the ans to my qns
the ans i desire to know...
i've got my ans
my feeling nw aint angry aint sad...
im calm...
why why why?!

things past and i hope i wont dwell on it
cos i dn want to start an arguement that brgs everything to the pt of no return...
lyk what she say... "kiss the past and say gdbye"...

i owe him an apology...
im sorry friend...
nw i know how u felt then...
the eagerness to help a friend of urs
i felt it...
im sorry...very very sorry...
but now everything is fine... and i know u have no worres anymore...
everyone needs a chance...
this chance given had changed him ...
trust him (:


love u

if only time cld stop at those days...
hw long can it substain?
or issit just temporarily?
hw i wish i cld go and have fun with no worries...
i really hope i cld go...
all i wan is to go...
the only thing i thought of is what if i cld go....
why cant i go?! ):

monopoly is fun(:
brgs laughther and threats(:

i enjoyed myself for thses days...thanks(:

hw nice wld it b if everything remain lyk this...
just laughthers and no worries...
nevertheless i know its all for the time being...





even with u close to me
i felt the insecurity too...
i thought it wasnt so bad if u are beside me...
why things are becoming from bad to worst?
its hurting...
dont go hurting me this way...
im scared that i cant take it...

rmb the 1st tym we met?
the hatred over ruled the love...
i luff at myself when i thought back...
its a miracle to me... its a magic
once a fantasy of me and u
but nw
the fantasy is over...
its the start of the nightmare...
or has it started long ago?
i cant control my emotional anymore...
)';

u dont wan to force but to lyk things to occur naturally...
sry if i mk u think that im forcing u to do it..
cos it naturally happened months back

i find myself fcuking stubborn...
advise given and all but yet im still standing at the same pt...
nv progress...
its not those words are wasted...
its bcos deep inside...the feeling is still dere...

i smile just to see u smile(:

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