♥ ♥ ♥

(I don't use this blog often,just feel like changing the skin lol:))

when you look me in the eyes,
and tell me you love me.
Everything's alright.
When you look me in the eyes,
i catch a glimpse of heaven.
I found my paradise.

what u've said today really pierce thru my heart): deeply
i see happiness in their faces
but i see non in yrs
i cause everything to happen...
i make u change

im the reason of all these

I thought sometime alone
was what we really needed
you said this time would hurt more than it helps
but I couldn't see that
I thought it was the end
of a beautiful story
and so I left the one I loved at home to be alone (alone)
and I tried to find out if this one thing is true
that I'm nothing without youI know better now
and I've had a change of heart
I'd rather have bad times with you, than good times with someone else
I'd rather be beside you in a storm, than safe and warm by myself
I'd rather have hard times together, than to have it easy apart
I'd rather have the one who holds my heart
And then I met someone
and thought she could replace youwe got a long just fine
we wasted time because she was not youwe had a lot of funthough we knew we were faking
love was not impressed with our connection they were all lies, all lies
so I'm here cause I found this one thing is true
that I'm nothing without youI know better now
and I've had a change of heart
I'd rather have bad times with you, than good times with someone else
I'd rather be beside you in a storm, than safe and warm by myself
I'd rather have hard times together, than to have it easy apart
I'd rather have the one who holds my heart
who holds my heart
I can't blame you if you turn away from me, like I've done you,
I can only prove the things I say with time,
please be mine,
I'd rather have bad times with (please be mine) you,
than good times with someone else (I know)
I'd rather be beside you in a storm (anytime),than safe and warm by myself (so sure baby)
I'd rather have hard times to gether,than to have it easy apart
I'd rather have the one who holds my heart (my heart)
I'd rather have bad times with you (surely),than good times with someone else (surely)
I'd rather be beside you in a storm (oh yeah),than safe and warm by myself (all by myself)
I'd rather have hard times together,than to have it easy apart (you know it)
I'd rather have the one who holds my heart

i m told to update my blog hah~

alright went to msia for 4 days and the trip was unforgettable...
its fun.full of laughther and all(:
i love my grandma too. we went back becos is her 79th bday....she is cute lah can!(: mwahs...
thou she is naggy at times but understood.
the family bond is as strong as ever....(:
ohhh and all my small cousins and nieces they are all damn fcukin cute..
i cant get enuff of them. i'll just go and kiss them hah...their chubby cheeks just make u go ohhlaa...(:
i think nxt time round when i go back agn they all nt cute alr lah...tsk

came back something happen agn...
hais... things started to change or has alr changed?!
i saw smth i dont wish to see...
early in the morning i tried the no.
it got thru... u say u got it bac ytd
but u lied cos its the day b4
simple things, yet complicated...
my heartache when u talk to me lyk shit
its a matter of dignity in front of ur friends right?
i understand...so its my fault

problems here and dere
headaches here and dere
think one day i might just die off of all these things lah...
too heavy for me....

looking thru all those lil notes, i feel that i m lacking alot of those happiness,
why m i feeling this way? ):


*thanks for being there for me(:

wake up damn early today...jus to accompany mama to go work and get my specs repaired...
bought a shirt and my mom bought a shoe for herself...i've to travell to help her buy that shoe! gdness how gd can i b =X

ytd got back our results and all of us managed to make it!
this is the most happening thing that cld happen
i m happy for my gers
cos we will get to study agn nxt yr!
just love them lots(:

leaving tonight
and my heart wans to stay....for lots of reason...
at my grandma hse will b bored lah so i bought myself soduku lol
i'll miss my gers...
i'll miss him
i'll miss u too k! (:

wanted to blog a longer entry ytd
type half way power failure
how rotten luck can i have... (:

i'll miss my goondu lots
hmm hope he wont anyhow lah!
hais...islu

and to SUNSHINE!
tc gd care of urself alright...
dont always b sad can anot!
bloodyhell leh...
thanks for the concern ya~(:
and thanks thanks thanks for the songs i lyk it alot haha...
(:

alright i m force to blog by some idiot out there shall not say the name...idiot~
had trng today hmm abit disappointing cos the level of seriousness is not there...
hmmm i noe i m not tough enuff lah cos i dont shout at my gers... nor will i say anything when something went wrong
alright seriously need some improvement!)':

and today is ANDREA's BIRTHDAY!
happy birthday ger...(:

thanks for the ice mocha(:
but i seriously dont feel lyk eating hah!
alright nxt tym shall treat u eat smth k!(:
it wasnt as bad as i thought it was...





ytd was our 1 yr anni...
went to sentosa early in the morning...
did nth much at there actually hah!
we both are observing a couple hah...alright shall not further elaborate(:
guess i saw hu ytd?!
i saw ght...(:
haha he was just beside us at the beach w/o him knowing it...
called him and told him i saw him haha...
he told me that his sch having orientation there and all...thats why he was dere
but anw its good bumping into him aft soooo long...he still looks so BLACK!

we left sentosa and went town... walked ard and bought out stuff and all...den had DINNER! a@ fish&co. (:
thanks pineapple
yummy yummy...

both of us were lyk so tired...so went to his hse...slack and all...
bought back nasi lemak and i m told to eat):
nt that i dn lyk is that its late alr ... and i m still very full haha...
but i still eat alil ...
his father send me hm and yeah this is hw we celebrate our 1 yr
and thanks for the gift(:
but most imptly is that we didnt quarrel! yeah...onli this makes me feel happy



sry for making u feel this way agn...
i didnt wan to say much cos i noe if i say more everything willl b worst
but sometimes...the way u write ur entry just mk me feel that everything is my fault and all
and u are pushing the blame on me for all ur slpless nights and sadness...and everything...
and u noe hw i feel?! i feel so bad and all...
nt getting what u always wanted?i know hows the feeling but sometimes u might not get the thing u crave for...

yeah finally had trng today!yippie and thou many gers absent but yar we learn something thou(:
learn to adjust my shooting.. and all...
sometimes is kinda stress when having trng, but i noe ihave to bare wif it(:

working real hard on our WR can see the seriousness in the gers...(: keep the spirit up k! its gonna b over real soon *_-
i love them lots...

yeah chat wif my precious... and we have come up with something which is...no matter what happens there will b some1 there for us...(:
and cherish what u have now.. the future we wld just have to leave it to the future...cos its the future right!
alr i m toking rubbish haha...

i just simply <3 her mwahsssss....

thanks for all the songs and all...

i noe u've done alot...

but u think its worth it?~

by getting urself hurt once and once agn for me...

let me tell u

is nt worth it at all

i find it hard to love u...
u are no longer the same to me..
the way u say things are just hurtful enuff...
maybe bcos we both are hot tempered
mayb we cant clique but we just come tgt
how long can we hold on to each other till the time we both get damn tired of each other
i dont wan the day to come..cos i noe i m not ready
the way we are behaving now, tells and shows something
which is i m gg to face the thing i m hiding all the while...
i m not as strong as u think i m
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tc of ur back will u...
and treat ur studies seriously...
i got really angry when u say bcos of me u nv did ur paper well
i m angry k!
cos i dont wan u go to such an extend...
i can t except...
the more u acting this way the more i will do things u dont lyk
so b gd
focus on other things first k!
thanks for the notes u written
tell ur friend i love her too(:

many things happened and its draining me out...
i didnt noe what to reply when i see those msges...sry)':

went out wif ah min ytd and we bought boxers~!
and flipflop!
alright its a long story... that very day when i finished my exams i took cab and i left my bloody shoe bag in the cab!! wif my flipflops...damn my heart ache can...goondu try to help me call the lost and found but i doubt they can find it lah! ): there goes my flipflop
so ytd bought another one...! (:
waited for him to come and we went to had our dinner ?! i think so...ate alot man!
den hang ard and headed to jp.
went there to have our earthquake!!!! ohhh lala....yummy eh...
den had a fruit salad?! wif prawn...eww the prawn taste weird..so i onli try one and thats all...yucks
totally bloated can!
we bluff aunty that i m not gg to her hse...
hah! but aunty found out that i lied! =X
sry is ur son's plan!
so when we went up no one is at home...!
hw great it is huh!
but in the end we went to his aunt's house...they are shifting hse thats why the whole hse was in a mess and stuff also...
oh he has a lil cousin, she is damn sweet looking! she is pretty! CUTE but shy hah!
den we went for supper...and pls is totally sabo! cos i m damn bloated and he ask me to eat more!
den his parents drove me home!

oh precious called me! omg... u really scare me ger... at that pt of time i really wanna go meet u lah
but luckily u had someone wif u ya...
nxt tym dont walk out late at night alone can!
no worries...(: i promise i wil b there!!!!

my stupid face!thats goondu and my lover(:

alright a candid shot...damn

seeing u lyk that just make me feel guilty everytime...

finally my exams are over! wee...
but when thinking of getting back the results i m stressed!
seriously these papers are lyk hard esp accounts!
totally greek! argh ...

things turn out to b gd...
but i ask myself one qns...
when will it last?!
a wk? a month ?
i dunnoe...i fear to face the same thing agn
i dont wan!dont do this to me agn )':


and U!
work hard for ur remaining papers k!
all the way!!!!!!
and stop piercing... cos i m gonna pull it out~!
i noe u put in alot of effort but pls stop urself from getting all those slpness nights can?!
be happy den i will be happy(:


wooo ytd evening... had dinner with my precious... oh its been so long ya(:
haha... we took pics and all den head-ed to precious hse and chat lots of things
problems we have and all...
she is the one that i can turn to whenever i had problems... thanks sweetie...i love u lots k!
lets go out sooonnnn....cant wait!



i admit my tone s abit pek chek and i tend to raised my voice but!
i did not did it purposly can!
its just that u keep repeating the thing agn and agn! and i m pissed thats all(:

oh bean came back and she is lyk always insulting me!
wth... call me a pig also damn,
first time i see her other side eh
EXAMS PHOBIA~
hah! ger just give ur best ya...
dont get so stressed up la

yeaps! 3 more papers in 2 days to go!
and i think i haven been really studying...arghh..
many things happened and its the same mistake
i might b foolish, immatured, an idiot, an attitude person, unlikable by u at times
just tell me dont do that to me
cos i cant take it anymore
i m not strong as b4
the impact is greater everytime it happens
if i m not gd for u, tell me
we will tok abt it
if still cant work
i will let u go, i will respect ur decison lyk hw ready u are to respect mine

u will always b the CHICKEN LIL!!!!


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